Meant to be alone...

So everyone hates me.... Y? u guys find me irritating. den DON'T EVEN BOTHER TALKING TO ME!!!!!! By talking to me, ur just wasting mins of your life so shut up!!!!!! if siu suan hates me... den ur right.. i won't bother. in fact... y should i even bother living huh????!!!! I hate being alone..... NO ONE AND I REPEAT NO ONE!!! knows the real me... Everyone thinks i'm an annoying and irritating bastard... but i only pretend to be like that because, if i showed the real me.... everyone would think i'm a weirdo.. but it seems like no matter what i do... everyone still has the same thinkin about me..... so what should i do now? so am i suppose to be alone forever??? All right. i'll tell u the true me...
I love nature.. Romance, and every single animal on the planet even though i'm afraid of insects i love music and dancin... I love badminton, running and now i am starting to like softball...all right? but y?!!! I DON'T KNOW Y!!!!! this is jus me.. all right.. i'm sick of pretending to be something i'm not.... i want people to like me for who i am... i want friends who help me... not like most of the classmates who just use me to get things for their own personal gain...... i want real friends who really stay by my side.... but no one ever does this to me... no one. i always feel so left out in groups.... the boys have their own group and friends. the girls also have their own groups and friends. but.... me... i'm nothin.... i'm jus an asshol*, an idiot, a know it all, a snob and whatever names people can come up with for me...... i'm jus nothing..... i'm not good at anything... even the simplest of things like making friends has only happened to me four times.. and thats it...... i have no other friends... but even having just four friends?.... now that we r in secondary school. these for friends have made new friends and i'm left with nothing again... jus alone by myself.... nthin more nthin less.....

Yo! nthn much to say today actually...... all i have to say is that i am destined to be alone forever.. i guess since no one likes me... at all.... dats y i like the 2 songs in the music part..... the 2 songs make me think of nothing else at all except my best friends... cing wei, reylan, joshua... haizzz none of us are free at all... how can i hang with my best friends???? haizzz... see wad i meen by being alone forever??... haizz oh well.... dats one good thing about being alone.. u dont have to worry bout anyone else but urself...... but its a different thing for me..... the closest thing i have are my best friend. dats y when they get in trouble, i'll do anything to protect my friends. I will die saving them if i have to..... i'll never give up.....

Soooo many people hate me...... should i care??? am i suppose to be alone all the time??? if siu suan trusted me 100% den y did she keep sooo many secrets about me and doesn't even bother to listen to me??? maybe i am suppose to be alone forever eh??? i mean who am i kiddin? i can't trust anyone anymore.... everyone looks at me from one view only... dat i am horrible, violent, emo.. etc........ no one really knows the real me...... i guess i do all those things because by being myself, everyone will think i'm a weirdo and hate me even more..... i've been doing that for soo long dat i don't even know myself anymore...... no more...... i can never understand anyone.....dats y i keep my best friends close to me........ because they r the closest things i've got besides my family..... but even that plan is failing me now.... what am i to do now????

Diaozz.

Hey wads wif all the bad coments about me??!! If u dun like me... den don't speak to me lar.... even if u do want to say that u hate me den jus say it to me straight.... dun need to use soo many different ways to tell me wad.... haizzzzzzz so wad if siu suan hates me..... so???? y should i really bother.... if anyone can answer this question.... den i can say that ur the smartest person in the world....... Q: What is the meaning of life???? lets see if anyone can give a GOOD and SENSIBLE answer to this question...

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZ

Diao i still very de bored.. i noe.... i'm always bored..hehe sry for not posting much for the past few days... busy.. wif... softball... i'm feel like i like the sport anymore..... it feels diferent when i play and enjoy it rather than i play but dun have my heart in the game... i like de game still but.... i don't know it jus feels soo diferent... badminton is still my fav sport though..... haiz. now i in school. our teacher allow us to use his laptop bcause we doin our rehearsel for teacher's day in class.... haizzzzz.......but then the students siu suan and cherlyn who r suppose to do the dance are missin.. well cherlyn went for choir while siu suan went to search for her..... and i'm left alone in the class.... we're suppose to return the lap top at 3.30...ooops its almost 3.30 already....shit!!! now i got one more thing to add to my 'things to do'... 1) Look for siu suan. 2) Return the laptop and power suply. 3) Look for cherlyn. 4) Go and eat. 5)go home and study. 6)do tuition home work. (i actually forgot about that. i just remembered that i haven't done my tuition homework yet.) and 7) Do house work.... oh well thats life.. YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i gotta go.. tok again ltr when i get home.. hmmm 8) Blog.... shit oh well c ya