The secret behind my baseball...

I'm sure there are many of you who see me carrying my baseball around with me where-ever i go right??? you will ask me why do i always carry that same baseball everywhere... well here are the secrets.... my classmates should have known by now that i am having a lot of emotional break downs all of a sudden... well its because... hmmm how should i tell you.... well for one thing, that ball represents my dreams and honor... it is something that i must have for me to continue living on this lonely life....... i have no dreams at all.... when i'm tossing the ball, it means i am in deep thuoghts and searching for a dream... the harder i toss, the harder i'm thinking, which is why i'm so emotionally unstable...whats my dream??? even if i do find out... i'll nvr tell anyone wad it is

Guess it ain't wad i thought it was...

Hmmmm Guess i was wrong bout my ''so called'' ''loving'' of the 2 girls.... now that i think about it... i guess it was jus a crush.. maybe it had always been jus that... a secret crush... maybe i'm not meant to be wif either one of the 2 girls.... noe y? usually, when u ''love'' someone, they stay in ur mind all the time.. guess wad... they weren't in mine all the time... i could still be easily distracted by games like DEVIL MAY CRY 4!!! OR DIABLO 3!!! OR EVEN DEVIL MAY CRY 3 DANTE'S AWAKENING!!! and sometimes even HELLGATE LONDON!!!!! but the game that is always!! ALWAYS ON MY MIND IS FINAL FANTASY 7, FINAL FANTASY 8, FINAL FANTASY9, FINAL FANTASY10 AND DISSIDIA FINAL FANTASY... sometimes even FINAL FANTASY TACTICS. WAR OF THE LIONS... yea.. i'm a major ff fan!!!!.. my most fav though is still 7!!! c'mon, u have to admit, 7 is kinda like the best of the ff series.. i mean, it even has its own MOVIE!!! and lighter! and ring ad necklace and bracelet and mini weapons set and life size clothes and all that!!! AND SOO MUCH MORE!!!! ok i'm gettin too carried away here!!!! 9nick snap out of it!!!!!! wake up man, exams are almost here!!!) Yea soo anyway... guess its not love after all.... soo i can finally focus properly on my exams.. if i don't get distracted by games.... oh i even forgot!!! PROTOTYPE!!! AND DISGEA AFTERNOON OF DARKNESS, DISGAEA 2 AND DISGAEA 3 ABSENCE OF JUSTICE!!!! >.< SOOOO MANY GAMES!! SOO LITTLE TIME!!!!!!!!!AARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!! THATS IT.. I'M GONNA GO PLAY DIABLO 2 LORD OF DESTRUCTION!!!! I MUST GET THE THREE TERROR, HATRED AND DESTRUCTION KEYS!!!!!!!! BYE BYE!!!!! HOPE I GET A CHANCE TO UPDATE SOON!!!!

feelings towards her...

i guess some of u might already noe of my feelings towards a certain special someone.. i've already told her and, i can't believe that i actually gonna tell u but, i asked her if i had a chance with her. even the slightest of chance to be wif her but.... when i finally had the courage to call her and ask her wad was her answer, she didn't pick up, i kept gettin rejected by her phone.. now her phone has had a few problems lately (it always has a problem) so i'm not sure if she really rejected me or if it was just her phone acting up (again...). and now that i'm friends wif o-s-s, i'm not sure of hu i like... i don't noe if i like HER because she looks like o-s-s or i like o-s-s because she looks like HER! Damn!!! y does love always find me in the weird and wrong times.... is it even love???? i mean i've liked o-s-s just as long as i have liked HER..... so wad is my mind telling me..... no wads my heart telling me? that i'll nvr find true love? am i to be alone 4 ever?.. i don't want to feel that way.. i'm already soo happy wif all the friends i have... tks guys.. after 2 years of putting up wif my nonsense, it finally paid off. i can see that i'm not without friends... but still... having someone that feels 4 u and u feeling the same way 4 that person.. when u 2 are together, wouldn't that be nice? i want to experience that once, or at least something like it in sec school.. i wanna be like normal students... some peeps say that i'm an act cool guy or smart ass. i don't wanna be that.. i wanna be normal... some things that u guys all noe, i might not noe... and they can be very common things about singapore even.. i didn't noe wad was LTA at first... but all of u already knew.. these things, i wish i was like everyone else...

Long time...

Hey Guys!!!!! Heh long time no say eh? hehe sry... been very lazy to switch my com on and update my blog.... well hmmmmm wad can i say after soo long..... Oh!!! i passed my mother tongue Oral exam!!!!! amazing eh??? heh didn't think i can pull it off.. thought i'd fail again... oh and uhhh haven't been doin much work though... think i should???? anyway, Holidays almost over eh guys? enjoyed yourselves abit? well once holidays are over, torture again.. homework, tests... u noe wad i mean... i've been going for holiday trainings fer softball. I really love the sport now! and Baseball too!!!!! i wanna train hard and win a medal fer the school and fer the team!!! GREANDALE!!!! SOFTBALL!!!!!!!! Come see us train if u guys get the chance.. oops fergot that cca stands down after the holidays... man! oh well.. maybe next year... hmmm i'd better post all i can now as i'm not sure i'll be posting another one anytime soon... oh well.... sigh.. anyway guys, hows life been treatin ya???;-p heh... oh! i got my own personal softball glove!!! its diff from baseball though... not sure y but it is... anyway ummmm i've been asking fer awhile now but uhhh hu is Cailing ? ? i didn't mean to offend u but i really don't noe hu u r... sry oh well... -----
so anyways guys and gals, see ya back in school!!!!!