The secret behind my baseball...

I'm sure there are many of you who see me carrying my baseball around with me where-ever i go right??? you will ask me why do i always carry that same baseball everywhere... well here are the secrets.... my classmates should have known by now that i am having a lot of emotional break downs all of a sudden... well its because... hmmm how should i tell you.... well for one thing, that ball represents my dreams and honor... it is something that i must have for me to continue living on this lonely life....... i have no dreams at all.... when i'm tossing the ball, it means i am in deep thuoghts and searching for a dream... the harder i toss, the harder i'm thinking, which is why i'm so emotionally unstable...whats my dream??? even if i do find out... i'll nvr tell anyone wad it is