Soooo many people hate me...... should i care??? am i suppose to be alone all the time??? if siu suan trusted me 100% den y did she keep sooo many secrets about me and doesn't even bother to listen to me??? maybe i am suppose to be alone forever eh??? i mean who am i kiddin? i can't trust anyone anymore.... everyone looks at me from one view only... dat i am horrible, violent, emo.. etc........ no one really knows the real me...... i guess i do all those things because by being myself, everyone will think i'm a weirdo and hate me even more..... i've been doing that for soo long dat i don't even know myself anymore...... no more...... i can never understand anyone.....dats y i keep my best friends close to me........ because they r the closest things i've got besides my family..... but even that plan is failing me now.... what am i to do now????

Diaozz.

Hey wads wif all the bad coments about me??!! If u dun like me... den don't speak to me lar.... even if u do want to say that u hate me den jus say it to me straight.... dun need to use soo many different ways to tell me wad.... haizzzzzzz so wad if siu suan hates me..... so???? y should i really bother.... if anyone can answer this question.... den i can say that ur the smartest person in the world....... Q: What is the meaning of life???? lets see if anyone can give a GOOD and SENSIBLE answer to this question...

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZ

Diao i still very de bored.. i noe.... i'm always bored..hehe sry for not posting much for the past few days... busy.. wif... softball... i'm feel like i like the sport anymore..... it feels diferent when i play and enjoy it rather than i play but dun have my heart in the game... i like de game still but.... i don't know it jus feels soo diferent... badminton is still my fav sport though..... haiz. now i in school. our teacher allow us to use his laptop bcause we doin our rehearsel for teacher's day in class.... haizzzzz.......but then the students siu suan and cherlyn who r suppose to do the dance are missin.. well cherlyn went for choir while siu suan went to search for her..... and i'm left alone in the class.... we're suppose to return the lap top at 3.30...ooops its almost 3.30 already....shit!!! now i got one more thing to add to my 'things to do'... 1) Look for siu suan. 2) Return the laptop and power suply. 3) Look for cherlyn. 4) Go and eat. 5)go home and study. 6)do tuition home work. (i actually forgot about that. i just remembered that i haven't done my tuition homework yet.) and 7) Do house work.... oh well thats life.. YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i gotta go.. tok again ltr when i get home.. hmmm 8) Blog.... shit oh well c ya

Haiz..... sooooo bored le... one thing good though, PARENTS not HOME!!!!!!! YEA!!! can slack even more hahahaha... haizzzzz even slacking oso can be very boring ... haizzzzzz i askin my frends if they r free or not, some nvr reply me... sian

Haiz holidays r startin...... I have no plans at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. dunno wad to do.... slack oso can be very borin..... haiz wad to do????? some more holiday still have stinkin softball trainin.. 9A.M!!!!!!!!!!!! IN THE MORNIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz... some of my frends oso not free.... haiz....... so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so bored!!!!!! well there is one good news... we won a game against woodland rings sec in a aoft ball game... haiz.... even now i oso dunno wad to do.... oh well... hmph i am gettin quite hungry...... oh! maybe i can bake..... haiz... no ingredients or the utensils to bake.... haiz... i think i'll go cook now... haha bet u didn't noe i could cook did ya? hahaha

Haiz today have softball game against orchid park... we got trashed. 29-0
0! le 0 le... haiz... so sad. but i didn't really bother about the game.. to tell u the truth, i don't really bother about softball at all. well okmaybe i do bother about softball as i am a sports person. but during the game, i didn't really bother about anything else except one person.
Nicole Yang.
u see i really like her alot and the thing is dat, she is in orchid park secondary. so of course i will definetly be happy to c her again. and when i got home, she finally called me after soooo long... so today was most likely to be the hapiest day of my life... but it didn't turn out to be sooo happy in the afternoon. siu suan (my mei mei not real life ah) was not happy and she started crying and cutting herself. so of course as a 'kor' i will be worried, so i tried to tok to her. but then she shouted at me. so of course i will be hurt. den i toked to her on msn and she said sorry. and she explained to me y she shouted at me. so i obviously will be relieved. and obviously, the best thing that happened to me today was being able to meet the one i like.... i meant lo.......v.........e allot today. Nicole I love ya too much liao... i'm crazy about ya!!!!!
oops probably shouldn't have said dat haha. nvm even if nicole sees dis, she won't mind because she already knows.

YES!!!!!!!! exam is soooo over now... i can slack all day if i want. hahaha play god of war, or monster hunter freedom 2 or jus sleep. or i can update my blog. but main point i can SLACK!!!! wahooooooo!!!!!!!!!