The secret behind my baseball...

I'm sure there are many of you who see me carrying my baseball around with me where-ever i go right??? you will ask me why do i always carry that same baseball everywhere... well here are the secrets.... my classmates should have known by now that i am having a lot of emotional break downs all of a sudden... well its because... hmmm how should i tell you.... well for one thing, that ball represents my dreams and honor... it is something that i must have for me to continue living on this lonely life....... i have no dreams at all.... when i'm tossing the ball, it means i am in deep thuoghts and searching for a dream... the harder i toss, the harder i'm thinking, which is why i'm so emotionally unstable...whats my dream??? even if i do find out... i'll nvr tell anyone wad it is

Guess it ain't wad i thought it was...

Hmmmm Guess i was wrong bout my ''so called'' ''loving'' of the 2 girls.... now that i think about it... i guess it was jus a crush.. maybe it had always been jus that... a secret crush... maybe i'm not meant to be wif either one of the 2 girls.... noe y? usually, when u ''love'' someone, they stay in ur mind all the time.. guess wad... they weren't in mine all the time... i could still be easily distracted by games like DEVIL MAY CRY 4!!! OR DIABLO 3!!! OR EVEN DEVIL MAY CRY 3 DANTE'S AWAKENING!!! and sometimes even HELLGATE LONDON!!!!! but the game that is always!! ALWAYS ON MY MIND IS FINAL FANTASY 7, FINAL FANTASY 8, FINAL FANTASY9, FINAL FANTASY10 AND DISSIDIA FINAL FANTASY... sometimes even FINAL FANTASY TACTICS. WAR OF THE LIONS... yea.. i'm a major ff fan!!!!.. my most fav though is still 7!!! c'mon, u have to admit, 7 is kinda like the best of the ff series.. i mean, it even has its own MOVIE!!! and lighter! and ring ad necklace and bracelet and mini weapons set and life size clothes and all that!!! AND SOO MUCH MORE!!!! ok i'm gettin too carried away here!!!! 9nick snap out of it!!!!!! wake up man, exams are almost here!!!) Yea soo anyway... guess its not love after all.... soo i can finally focus properly on my exams.. if i don't get distracted by games.... oh i even forgot!!! PROTOTYPE!!! AND DISGEA AFTERNOON OF DARKNESS, DISGAEA 2 AND DISGAEA 3 ABSENCE OF JUSTICE!!!! >.< SOOOO MANY GAMES!! SOO LITTLE TIME!!!!!!!!!AARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!! THATS IT.. I'M GONNA GO PLAY DIABLO 2 LORD OF DESTRUCTION!!!! I MUST GET THE THREE TERROR, HATRED AND DESTRUCTION KEYS!!!!!!!! BYE BYE!!!!! HOPE I GET A CHANCE TO UPDATE SOON!!!!

feelings towards her...

i guess some of u might already noe of my feelings towards a certain special someone.. i've already told her and, i can't believe that i actually gonna tell u but, i asked her if i had a chance with her. even the slightest of chance to be wif her but.... when i finally had the courage to call her and ask her wad was her answer, she didn't pick up, i kept gettin rejected by her phone.. now her phone has had a few problems lately (it always has a problem) so i'm not sure if she really rejected me or if it was just her phone acting up (again...). and now that i'm friends wif o-s-s, i'm not sure of hu i like... i don't noe if i like HER because she looks like o-s-s or i like o-s-s because she looks like HER! Damn!!! y does love always find me in the weird and wrong times.... is it even love???? i mean i've liked o-s-s just as long as i have liked HER..... so wad is my mind telling me..... no wads my heart telling me? that i'll nvr find true love? am i to be alone 4 ever?.. i don't want to feel that way.. i'm already soo happy wif all the friends i have... tks guys.. after 2 years of putting up wif my nonsense, it finally paid off. i can see that i'm not without friends... but still... having someone that feels 4 u and u feeling the same way 4 that person.. when u 2 are together, wouldn't that be nice? i want to experience that once, or at least something like it in sec school.. i wanna be like normal students... some peeps say that i'm an act cool guy or smart ass. i don't wanna be that.. i wanna be normal... some things that u guys all noe, i might not noe... and they can be very common things about singapore even.. i didn't noe wad was LTA at first... but all of u already knew.. these things, i wish i was like everyone else...

Long time...

Hey Guys!!!!! Heh long time no say eh? hehe sry... been very lazy to switch my com on and update my blog.... well hmmmmm wad can i say after soo long..... Oh!!! i passed my mother tongue Oral exam!!!!! amazing eh??? heh didn't think i can pull it off.. thought i'd fail again... oh and uhhh haven't been doin much work though... think i should???? anyway, Holidays almost over eh guys? enjoyed yourselves abit? well once holidays are over, torture again.. homework, tests... u noe wad i mean... i've been going for holiday trainings fer softball. I really love the sport now! and Baseball too!!!!! i wanna train hard and win a medal fer the school and fer the team!!! GREANDALE!!!! SOFTBALL!!!!!!!! Come see us train if u guys get the chance.. oops fergot that cca stands down after the holidays... man! oh well.. maybe next year... hmmm i'd better post all i can now as i'm not sure i'll be posting another one anytime soon... oh well.... sigh.. anyway guys, hows life been treatin ya???;-p heh... oh! i got my own personal softball glove!!! its diff from baseball though... not sure y but it is... anyway ummmm i've been asking fer awhile now but uhhh hu is Cailing ? ? i didn't mean to offend u but i really don't noe hu u r... sry oh well... -----
so anyways guys and gals, see ya back in school!!!!!

It's damn cold here!!!!!!!

Man!!!! like the title states.. its super cold here!!!!!!! you know i went to the bei jing olympic's stadium the temp was like -10 around there... man and the worse part is that the wind was blowing very very strong!!!!!! so the temp is cold and u r like already freazing along and with the wind blowing all the cold air towards you!!!!!! dude do u know even wearing a thick pair of gloves, my hands were still damn cold. i got to somewhere warm and bloody hell u can feel the biting feeling on the hand cause ur hands r soo cold den u go into a warm area, wht the fu** man... its really damn cold!!! clder than great wall man... what the hell i wear until so warm but not enough.. i have no idea how the hell the china peeps can take it.. over there u r so cold then u see some china people wlking past u without a hat or glove like nothin at all to them.. how the hell man.. wa lau no idea how cold its gonna be tomorrow man. u know if the wasn't any wind, it would be ok. but cause of the wind blowing all the cold air towards u. man i mean its soo strong that it feels like a small kid is pushing u.. thats like how strong the wind is blowing.. all the time.. a strong gust of wind is worse... man hope tomorrow will be better man...

Fun.... never felt like this in a long time.... part 2

Fun.... like i said.. nvr felt like it in a long time... u know how u used to be blurr in kindergarten and u had jus met a new kid and then ten seconds later ur playing like u have no care in the world? well my ten seconds were a realy long ten seconds... that short ten seconds felt like an eternity to me.... i had no friends in kindergarten... everyone thought i was weird... i remember i was pushed by a boy.. he pushed me to a bench so hard, i tripped and hit myself jus abouve the eye... i don't even remember the pain... i guessed i had knocked out... i woke up sittin on a chair with 2 teachers lookin at me... and cleaning the blood.. then they said they would call my parents.... after that, i knocked out again... guess its because of the loss of blood that made me feel sick and blurr.... i woke up in a hospital.. of course the wound was so bad hat i needed stitches... hey dun go thinkin that they will put u to sleep.. the doctor had to stitch me while i was awake.. bad time to stay awake... it hurt soooooo much... anyway.. continueing... i was bullied in kindergarten and in primary and now sec... the only friends i ever had were ching wei.. i met him in kindergarten... of course my meetin with him was an accident... joshua kovipilay.. met him in primary. and reylan.. also met in primary... and now. i would be happy to say that i can add another friend into the picture of my best friends... HOPE YOUR READING THIS FIRDAUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUP ITS U... thanks bud... =) my friends were the only ones who made me laugh.. my best friends were the ones who made me laugh the most... ever since i left kindergarten, i have nvr felt fun anymore... other than meeting my 2 other best friends... but goin bak. i had nvr felt any fun after that... i finally felt wad fun was like after goin to the class chalet... the fun i felt was jus like when i met my best friends. those class mates who went to the challet, those were my friends and firdaus was my best friends (no offence to the others) now i feal like i was bak in kindergarten.. this fun will stay with me till i die...

I'M BAK!!!!!! NOT FOR LONG THOUGH

WOOOOHOOOOOO bak from australia!!!!!!!!!!!! U know something? australia is summer time but the weird thing is that its cold over there.......... freaky........ and theres rain.... usually during summer, plants will turn brown but somehow, they all remain green cause of the freaky weather..... i blame it on gobal warming.... anyway, i was at bondi (bon-die) beach like 2 days ago and it was like very sunny and EXTREMELY windy.... so u will get pelted by sand when the wind blows.... u might think it will be nice to gon into the warm water but u are sooooo wrong!!!!!!!!!!!! the water is fuc**** cold man... the water there is from the pacific ocean!!!!!! the waves are nice so u can body surf or surf but the water is damn cold man.. its like ice water!!!!!!!